::..Yesterday and Today..::

not again... i keep falling sick. this time, i insist not to see a doctor. last month medical bill has already amounted to more than a hundred dollar. out of which $30 is my own money... heartache! should drink more water and eat less outside food. last night i couldn't resist the crispy fried ikan bilis (sambal) =x ate a few... ha. nowadays i like to see ahead... plan things ahead. i like to be filled with activities... 

TODAY- Card-making session wif wm (she coming over.. yeah! )
THURS- Dinner at wt hse...
WED??

huiyang went hk... cannot go swimming with me. but right now i got flu also cannot swim. siannnn! 

OOOh! almost forgot! i just bought a new camera! sony T20
THanks to all those who provided me with info and other help.=) esp. JD and ter... 
ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS

jd was working there then... so i kept asking him to check stock for me. hehehe. i'm evil ^^
he seemed v free leehhh... can reply my msg in spilt seconds. hA. (ok. i noe u're viewing my blog.. cannt say unpleasant things)
but got one thing i m not satisfied with.
i don't like the sales person who i bought the camera from. he didn't help me at all...he took the extra commission just by writing his name on the cash paper. eeyer... jd u shld have told me earlier which person u approaching. i prefer the first guy i met on friday. he is good t explaining and advertising e cam... just feel that he deserves it more.

hello!!! i am back here blogging... hehhe... i have closed my blog@ blogspot. seems like nobody is viewing anyway... yeap.. down here... it's just me and you. and mayb some passer-by... many many things happened after A levels... today is officially 1 week and 4 days after A levels. last night i had both good and bad dreams. both regarding my alvl results. i hope the second dream is true. NOT THE FIRST pls.... the dream seems So REAL!!! Usually i can hardly remember anything in my dream. but my dream last night or this morning... is damn real. i can remember almost everything. or at least the impt parts.

First dream

Everybody went back to innova in good looking attire.. yeap. good looking. strangely, i only see people who i know.. like MAY, huijun.. and some other teachers... cannot clearly remember the rest. i have gotten my result slip quite early. but i dare not look.. wanted to look when everybody has gotten theirs. MA have already looked at theirs. i didn't ask them how the fair. but they look satisfied. oh ya... i saw xinyi in my dream too.. she was happy about her result. crying but out of happiness. then, i met huijun... i asked her how she did.. she said alright. and i open my result slip in front of her... i was like... OMG! 
B
D
A
C
E
A
D
A
i broke down. i got Aces for physics and math... the marks were written on the slip as well... kinda funny. there are more than 7 subjects. got 98 and 96 for both maths. strange again, since when we have double maths? i got  73.6 for physics... and flunked the rest...i did worst for chem. that was the reason why i cried in my dream. i called yun and told her... i cannot study chemistry in university. 

SECOND DREAM

i woke up of the first dream... but still in dreamland. "phew!" i told myself. "I thought it is real. luckily it's just a dream" today is the day to collect result. i went back feeling anxious and acting calm. everybody is supposed to proceed back to their respective classes... saw all the 12C peeps again. we didn't talk at all... everybody is so quiet. for the first time. no gossip. no fights. no nothing. mdm zee came in... like usual... she crap with us. then she appointed me to distribute the result slips... she said i did well... she also mentioned that mel and arison have done well too.. 
THE END.

though the second dream is short. i like the ending! 

happy birthday, mingli!

i should post other interesting things that had happened last few days... soon! 

hohoho... it 's a little bit too much to blog at two different blogs. however blogging at blogspot and here is different. blogging over there i have to think twice on what i should say and what i should not say. moreover i can lock certain entries here. haha... alright. for this entry, i hope somebody( that somebody) is reading...

 recently one of my friends and i became very cold to each other. i wonder if it is because of the ice skating incident. i doubt so la... cuz it happened so long ago. aiya... thinking of it makes me so emo! friend, what has happened? can you just tell me or at least give me a sign? being cold to me makes me more sad! you should vent out all your anger on me if you are dissatisfied in certain act of mine. i know i may be quite straight forward and sarcastic at times. alright... i apologise for those words( though i don't know which one exactly hurt you) yes. last time my sir used to tell me that i should learn to be more sensitive to friends around me. but being over-sensitive made me more upset and i will start to ponder over more unhappy events. i felt like a failure that way. so sometimes i just act naive and treat everything as simple as possible. why think so much? 
will she read it? if she doesn't... should i ask her in person? maybe it is just not the right time to ask her... she has other problems in heart, i guess... prelims, ALEVELS. hmm... ya. shouldn't bother her now. whatever it is i still hope she can talk more to me. say her heart out. please!

showed my blackest face to my sister this morning... i was doing a math paper den she kept asking me to help her see this and that.... do this and that. got quite fed-up. but thinking back,.. i was being nasty to help her so reluclantly. haha! sorry sister. i am not suppose to give you that damn sour face. sometimes people act too quick before thinking. i must really cut a balance with work and play. =) alright. i have decided not to give myself so much pressure. whether i do well or not.. just give my best;) 
yesterday was quite fun! haha! went mediacorp with huijun.... just her and me sitting at one corner with 4 innovians... but we don't know elaine. so just anyhow cheer when she came out... whaha.. weird. those people behind us didn't cheer. i tot they were her friends?? we kept looking back to check if the 4 innovians were cheering. but nope. they aren't. it will be strange if only we 2 cheer... but aiya.. who cares. haha! they passed us the cards with "elaine" written on it... den i kept fanning the card... haha. elaine sang the "old" song. the song she once sang in school... but she sang really well.=) jia youjiayou! we didn't stay for the results... 

don't know the waiting time for all buses back to yishun int is sOOo LONG! we missed the first bus and needed to wait at least 15minutes?? for the next bus. oh my god. haha! then got one grp of mayflower students super irritating. they saw us missing the bus, turned back and said.. " sOo sad..." with that very sarcastic look. *MIND you Own business please!* earlier her friend was shouting over to me " girl, that guy waiting to get your number" (because i was standing beside that guy waiting for HJ). that rude guy turned to me and said " GOODBYE!". phew. how childish can they can?!

Huijun and me have planned out what to do after our prelim. kinda of... LOL. we had a long chat in the train and bus... ahha! took some idiotic pictures and videos too. =)) 
AFTER PRELIM***
1) Porridge buffet @ suntec
2) fantistic four!
3) get wm present.
4) GSS continues
5) momentum must go on too

hERE COMES the weekend... i wonder if i have spent it well... ohh... can someone please tell me " don't be over anxious over the coming prelim exam? everybody seem to be studying so HARD... even myself. but i am afraid of ONE thing... WHAT IF.... I studied very well.. but didn't do as well as expected? oh no... can someone please also tell me... "PRELIM 1 is not everything. RELAX." gonna study hard like what i have done for the past few days tmr as well... am i studying hard eugh actually? this holiday went shopping (GSS), movie and watched drama at home... and 1 concert. went dating too... lOl... with friends la. look at huiyang... she seems to be studying non-stop. don't think she went shopping or for a movie. LOL. but why am i comparing. haha!
Hours ago received a good news from huijun. ha! always believe that you are my buddy! true buddy! remember our golden ship?? haha! it will never sink. she got me ticket to campus superstar. OHMYGOD! ha. thank you so much! I bet she couldn't get anyone else to go with her due to the coming prelim. that's how i feel. but maybe... i am the first she tried asking, woah... then i will really be TOUCHED ;)

heyhey... have been so long since i last came in to post an entry. oh my... more and more people are reading my blog at blogspot.com... hmm... see i am not that open person. as in... i don't really like people to know me that well... perhaps not those passerby to know me. close friends are fine. really. =))haha! this is my own blog. me and myself. nobody. a place far far away. where i can truely speak. unless they care to look thru my link... if not i doubt people will ever find out this secret place. hehe... i have been browsing through friends' blog randomly. i really love to read blogs with feelings in them. blogs where people write about their real life stories. their opinions and emotions. just by looking from the appearence, you can never know how the person feel. in most cases, i felt, people love to conceal their feelings. yes, i don't deny i do that. and the strangest thing is... the closer you are to me... the more bad-tempered i will be to you. maybe that's what people known as "TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED." sometimes i wish i can treat those who deserve it better. had a small fight with my mum last night... fight over food-.- my mood was already screwed before the fight. yesterday should be the worse day this year. hate it hate it. i hate fish too... so please, stop forcing me to eat it. it will only cause more tension between us. what's the matter with not cooking fish for me? it is not like you only know me yesterday? since young i have disliked the smell of fish. hate the bones in it. don't you know? mum... please understand me. you don't like seaweed, i don't buy it for you. I don't like fish, you don't cook it for me. yayy... but i wasn't that insensible. i didn't talk back when she scolded me. just kept quiet and walked away. i don't even have the stamina to fight back. but i still don't know who's at the wrong? her or me?
Anyway, everything is back to normal today. she even helped me with my sunflower rearrangement. i have planted a new sunflower seed. all other four seedlings have withered. the fresh plant seems fit. but these few days look rather yellowish. lack of sunlight. so i moved it to another place. haha! a place called home. rubbish. okie... i shall stop here... blog soon! ;))

i got an ugly duckling in return. LOL.

it looks suP.ER blur man... lols... got it stick on my windows... whaha! so cute. like flying in air. blow wind blow. =D

WOAh... see. i told you time doesn't or never wait for us. with a blink it's already xmas. second blink, new year will be here. 2007! omg!!! gonna hold on to every min and seconds really tightly. treasure every now and then. tomorrow i will be giving out my special xmas gift away. what makes it special?? it's handmade. it's expensive though! cost me a total of $15. pretty expensive for a handmade item. yeah. i am going to upload the pictures of the process of making here. =) I spent just 2 days working on it. of cuz excluding the wrapping time. haha!

1)  
Trace out the pattern
2)
 Insert the LED lightings
3)
Soldering work. this is the toughest part!! worked from 9pm-2:30am! to complete.
4)
front view
5)
lights up!! whaha!!! it works!
6)
ta-da!!!

haha... i haven't forgotten about my livejournal blog... though i seldom blog here... now i have 3 journals... blogspot.. here as well as my written diary. written diary is for super personal stuff.. hehe..=x well, i suffer from insomnia last night!!! do insomnia spread? haha!if it does, i am sure my sister has transmitted it to me! miracly i don't feel sleepy inspite of not sleeping well. hehe... kinda excited about something... recently, i found that my memory has become poor. ah! must start doing maths to exercise it... haha! it true u know... if you slack for too long a time... ur brain won't function that well... so i have started to stop going through the same routine of waking up early and watch korean dramas from youtube. instead, i should do homework! go out! hahaa! keep my brains working! of cuz not forgetting to rest enough.

visit my new blog at lollipopnpeas.blogspot.com

;)

ah! the haze is back again... yesterday the weather still quite clear... eee... when can the haze leave us completely?

oh anyway. i went jurong pt to look for heels today... finally noe where "BA PING" is already... haha! yeah, indeed the shoes there are unique and attractive... mostly retro kind. haha! and that's what i am searching for! i fell in love with so many pairs of shoes there... esp. the purple with ribbon heels. it's quite high though... might not be able to walk properly if i wear that one... LOL!

i bought a black eye liner and a sharpener for it and some other hair accersories..

Ytd went for class outing. Only 8 person turned up... No, actually 9 person... but one of them is from another class de... haha! didn't expect so little to come... luckily i am not the organiser... if not i sure would be disappointed. hehe... anyway, we went isetan for lunch at pepper lunch... haha! the food there doesn't really suit my appetite. as u noe... i don't like bean sprout; and all the set meals come with bean sprout. yuck. haha.. but luckily it's self cooking... i wait until all the bean sprout over cooked already den i started eating. Haha...! And the corn soup was too diluted (puke)... So i don't think it's worth eating there lar...  But my sis like it... (wonder why..) Her taste different from mine. maybe i got guys' taste. ytd, my fren also said i dress like guy... must wear double layers inside. LOL! after lunch we went cineleisure to watch 'The Prestige'.. hMm... i don't understand what the show is all about. waste my money again! shld have saved for deathnote or DOA.. hai... haha!  yah, and we took neo print tgt too! haven't seen it yet though... i think might get it by tmr... get it liao den i upload here. ;) hoho!


 
aCTING coOL On Stage

DARING US! FOOLING AROUND IN LECTURE THEATRE =d

aiyoh! imitating which teacher arh?

click for better clearer view ;)


Focus on the dot and move ur head forward and backwards... do u find the rhombus moving? haha!



ALL ILLUSION!

LASTLY! THE MOST INTERESTING ONE!






look at the 4 dots in the middle of the picture for 30seconds
your eyes should be as relax as possible
den look at a white wall near you
you shall see circle of light developing
start blinking your eyes a couple of times
what do you see? OR who is it?

this saturday is innova open house... and right now i am doing 50 bookmarks, which have to be distributed out on that day... OMG! 50 bookmarks! not easy... my hands are super shakey now... after doing like 25 bookmarks...(non stop) haha! only half way thru... luckily my mum volunteerd to help me erase the leftover pencil mark... haha. save my trouble ;) thanks mummy! =) LOVE YA!

I have brought my spectacle to the optician for repair... so right now, i have to put on the super old specs(i used to wear it in sec 2) The degree of this spec isn't the right one for me too... so see things abit blurry... haha.. can only get back my specs next wednesday... now can only bear with it first.;)
oh NO! next wednesday, i would be getting back my promo results too... so worried. by the way, i have finished watching 'my girl'. the ending was good! i didn't expect that ending though... i tot yoo rin is gong chan's real younger cousin, just that they haven't found out... but the truth isn't so... haha.. the movie director really know how to trick his viewers... a MUST CATCH DRAMA! Better than my lovely samsoon and glass shoe... hmm.. as good as wonderful life and save the last dance for me. it's a comical cum touching show! i cried pretty much in the last few episodes... haha.. but it's still funny! hahaa!!! wow! broke a record! it only took me 4 days to finish the whole of this drama... hehe...

yeah! my mid course examination was just over! HAPPY SHALALALA...=D i have got so many plans to execute now... so much that i don't know which to do first. i want to go shopping! eat good stuff! play candles (childish i noe=x) swimming! cut hair! alot alot! watch korean drama! kbox!i want to explore more new places in singapore! LOL! anyway, yesterday after my last paper, i went CWP to look for some catchy korean drama.and the salesgirl recommended a show- My Girl..
.     MY GIRL     

 LEE DONG WOOK ( the main lead in MY GIRL)

now i am kidda addicted to this show... i did not buy from the shop(out of stock!) haha... but managed to watch it from youtube.=) only started watching yesterday afternoon and i am at episode 10 already!!! unbelieveable isn't it? yes. that's how crazy i am over korean drama. =x maybe got influenced by my sister... she used to buy all kinds of drama to watch, from japanese, taiwanese to korean... anything as long as it's nice... aiya... don't know what is wrong with this labtop's msn messenger programme... it is not working... no connection to messenger. sian... -.-


wait! haha! just found out the date and time in this computer is set wrongly... after changing it back to the correct one... now msn messenger can work again! amazing! does it show that we cannot communicate with other people if we are in different time? haha! a time machine solves this problem ;) i have "invented" a time machine and made messenger operate smoothly again... ----> !LAME! 

 

aH... super sick! the weather, the mess on my table... ah! everything around me! sickening... no mood to study for my phsyics paper.. how i wish my exams have already ended... but no choice.. tmr marks the end of exam season... at least for me. hmm... now i gotta get back to serious work... wish me luck =)

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

what really is true friend? do you have one?

if true friends are people whom you can share anything under the sun with... then, i strongly doubt that it exists... i am certain that there is no one on earth that allow you to open your heart to share problems or happiness with. everyone keeps secrets. choosing not to reveal secrets is rather common in us. Even if you feel that you have told a buddy your biggest secret, in reality, there are more yet to be revealed...

For me, the definition of true friend is someone who will not make you feel lonely, someone who will not take you for granted, someone who will help you at times, someone who makes you smile w/o realising that you are smiling and last but not least someone who shows care and concern for you

then, another question struck me instantaneously. if i only have a true friend, should i be satisfied? if you only have one true friend... and millions so-so friends... do you think it is enough?

i was invited to ailing's birthday celebration, which was at Plaza Singapura cafe cartel... it was a rather strange gathering... why do i say so? that is because none of us know the whole of the people who were invited. in other words, everyone is just indirectly-connected... but all of them are of the same age... i got to know a few new friends through this party... we also exchanged numbers... quite fun knowing them... bUt, after the cake cutting... i was really sian -.-.... people started calling for money here and there... LOL... haha... and 2 of the boys there started singing(seriously, their voices are really good and cool)

oh ya... today while huiyang and i were shopping at orchard... we ran into 2 grps of people who commented that huiyang and i looked much younger den our actual age... haha... yah. we met the first person who said that to us at orchard mrt station... he approached us and passed us a company card... it's a "new face project company" They are searching for teens with 'new' faces... hmm.. so called searching for models... but just looking at face.. not the whole body. so no need to have perfect size or height... LOL... we felt that there is no harm accepting their invitation, so left our names and contact numbers... maybe can make some money out of it too =) money face! the second grp was people from s'pore poly... they even said we look like lower secondary students.-.-!

do we really look that young???
i thought i have a mature face. at least face of my own age... "bewildered"

[we're just trying to be silly in the photo]